I am going back through the few pictures I have of my days in elementary and high school. The pictures are few, because I was usually the one behind the camera.
FirstInLine commented on the change in posture as the years advanced. In early elementary it was head down, shoulders hunched and head tilted. Later in elementary, my head is coming up and the head tilt is disppering. In high school my head is almost erect and my gaze is level, looking directly into the camera. The one from my Army days show that my shoulders are back, my head is up and I'm looking at the camera with a steady gaze, almost challenging.
Remembering my progression through those years, I have realized that the "improvement" in posture and attitude went hand in hand. I gradually began to publicly and blatantly ignore verbal bullying. I also became confrontational when anyone wanted to physically bully me. The fact that we moved to a different town between my Freshman and Sophomore years of high school helped. Because I was very skinny (had to carry a sack to cast a shodow) I had a hard time being intimidating. So, I developed a very confident appearing demeanor.
I remember the time one of the football team linesmen decided to threaten me. I told him that he was enough larger than I that he could do whatever he wished. However, he would have to spend the rest of my life looking over his shoulder, because I would attack him every time I saw him. In the school halls, downtown, in any classroom, in the Principal's office, it didn't matter to me. I would attack him EVERY time I saw him and he would have to beat me up again. The only way he could avoid living the rest of my life being in fear of me would be to leave me alone or kill me.
I delivered this in my best dead calm, non-inflected voice. I tried to pass the impression that I ws deadly serious, but was not at all emotional about it. I was merely stating facts. Much to my relief, it worked. Not only did he back off, he told others to back off, when he noticed anyone trying to intice a fight. It was a great help for a 105 pound skinny to gain the aid of the local 230 pound football star.
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